Bianca Marcelo

I still remember the very first day i met you. SO CLEARLY. hahaha we were at your house back in like gr.6 before i even moved to milton. our mommies introduced us. you were wearing your hair in braids on each side and we were pretty much wearing the same outfit. man i miss it, those fucking crazy famjam card games lol. then i finally moved to milton and you told people i was your cousin and we always just went along with it telling people we were cousins cause PRETTY MUCH...we were. grade 9 came along and we fuckn ran shit hahah. all along the way babe you were ALWAYS there for me and i always had your back. we always had those nights where we would cry and complain about the fob rrents. and we'd always chill because our moms would always let us since they trusted us being together. little did they know we would just reach parties and get fucked looool. and then we kinda drifted apart because we met new people and shit, but we still talked to each other and still called each other cousins lol. but thennnnnnnn shoppers came along and we became so close again always reminisin about our fob rents and everything. finally we were tight again huh lol. shit i don't wanna expose everything we did cause honestly we were rebs LOL actually no you were and i just decided to follow you hahaha. babe, i can't believe youre gone. its so unreal...i know you're in a better place now but its still taking me forever to accept that youre not here. i always tell people itll be okay, help them out and say we're in this together and youre still here with us in our hearts. but im just kidding myself when i say i'm okay. cause im not. i really miss you, and its hard coming to your house and only seeing your fam...and not you. its hard going places knowing i've been to those places with you. it was hard working still knowing you wouldnt be working with me... babe its been the hardest 7 months ever. but we're still here holding each other down. so i hope you're just watching over us helping us through it...i know you are actually. whenever i'm thinking about you, the right songs always come up on the radio...the right signs just appear and i know you're here. one day we'll meet again. and i can't wait to see your beautiful face and hear youre laugh that just makes me smile. i told you i'd keep my promise...and i hope i'm doing an okay job. i promise you i'll always keep it. i promise you.

babe im thinking about you, praying to you, missing you and loving you

every single day of my life. <3

i'll never forget my cuz, my hoochie, my fob, my chinkz.

i'll never forget you ever.

you meant more to me than anyone will ever know, and you still do

i love you so much baby. i'll see you again one day...

forever and ever baby, rest in peace<3

 

I remeber in Grade 8 we would go to those stupid Leisure Centre Dances together and we'd laugh our bags off :) I miss you so much B, and i miss you even more when i think that ill never see you again :( You were derfinatly one of the most beautiful girls in all of Milton, you were such a sweetheard but a little devil inside, lol. Im just glad that you and Ilko, the love of your life are together and happier then ever, im sure he loves you so much more knowing that you did that curagious act just to be in his arms again, you really showed us what love really means. When i look into my bf's eyes i think of you and the love that you and Ilko had and it makes me want to hold onto him forever! I love you Bianca, and everythings going to be great for you from now on, no more heartache, no more tears, your with your baby now and thats all that matters in the whole world! I cant wait to see you again im going to grab you and hold onto you as if im never going to see you again becaue i love you so much sweetheart, and im just sooo glad that your at peace with the love of your life. I hope you two have such amazing times together forever, and for eternity ill love you Bianca, i miss you honey! <3 It is really true what people say, you are truly heavens most beautiful angel!!! And of course Ilko but he's second, lol. Im so sorry about all of your heartache and tears everything all better now. Rest in Pace my love ill come see you very soon <3

There are so many memories I could write here, so I'll try my best to keep them to a minimum. Although we grew apart when you moved away, I still remember all of the good times we had together. At school, we would write each other letters about our days or how we were feeling. We talked about stuff like our new teddy bears or how our parents were being stupid. And because my mom taught at the same school, you would give her the letter and she would pass it on to me.. she was like our little messenger. I loved that. I found one of those letters the other day. I was going through some boxes and found pictures, letters, and a whole bunch of stuff. And you always had really neat writing. I never told you this, but I was always jelous that you could print so neatly, and you we're so smart too! Oh and of course there was the time I had you and Jordyn over for my birthday. You gave me a shirt that said Mickey on it. It was my favourite shirt for a long time. I was so mad when I lost it. I'd give anything to have it right now, just so I could be connected with you in a way. And the pool party I had at the pool in Malton. Everyone was there, and we had a blast. That was the day that you cut your knee on the diving board and had to get three stitches. I was so worried about you, and I couldn't wait to see the stitches and give you a big hug. I really miss you, and I would have given anything to have at least gotten back in touch with you before any of this happened. I hope you're looking out for all of us down here, and I can't wait to see you again. Wait for me, alright? LOVEEE YOUUU SO MUCHHH. <3

soo ummm im gonna need this whole page aha lmao.

memories omg where do i start...

i remmeber square one with ilko and nasko..and how i tricked ilko into getting u that fcuk sweater..aha yeah i said ti sorry ilko lmao

i remember yogen fruz with you

tick tick.. lol

newyork baby!!

bubbly

movies

my house

ur house

our late night rides to mississauga everysingle weekened

our sleepovers

me walking in on u n ilko pretending to have sex lmao

eating food all the time

mcdonalds... and i never ate u jsut got 2 cheeseburgers with only mayo and ketchup

i rmember diyosa and reina

i remeber respect to emo kids lmao u and ur black ballons.. lol

i rmemeber ms. robertson the chipmunk

milf class

math class

you and ilkos dirty secret...aha and im the sick fuck?! offt yea right b

i remembr lower base line road in the middle of the night..with massive fog and rain in the capsule

i remmeber the beast...olga

i remember ooooo shittttt

i remmeber day i lost my u know what i told ilko within 2 seconds

i rmemebrr wanna runa beat

i remmeber pretending to run a beat everywhere.. lmao

i remember EVERYTHING..but truth is

theres not enough room here babe cause i can go on for hours on end and day and forever

but i mostly remmeber the day you left me...

i miss you so much

please come back to me

just let me know that ur happy

cause then ill behappy

...send me a sign

i love and and ilko so very much

and think of you everyday

come see me babe

till we meet again

reina and diyosa FOREVER

 

i love you.

I remember back in grade 7, at Camp Tanamakoon... One night, after the counsellors told some dumb scary stories, we kept hearing noises outside the cabin. We were the only ones awake and really scared... so Bianca told me to come up to her bunk. It was the tiniest bed ever but we shared the whole night because we were both so scared. We almost fell out a few times... but we laughed so hard in the morning.

Grade 7 was also the year that I gave her a "best friend" card... just for no reason lol. A year later she still had the stupid card... sitting in her room, along with a "best friend" bracelet I'd given her.

I wish we stayed friends b... I wish we didn't grow apart... but I know I'll see you again.

Love you so much!