Bianca Marcelo

hey foo' <3

we got a rice maker!

now im 20% more asian

only like 5% to go.. aka the eyes

haha, i dont know how ill beable to get those asian eyes

today was another one of those retreats i was telling you about,

it was actually pretty fun, i told our story like i always do

about the bestest friend i could ever have,

the day we met .. bestest day everrrr

miss those days b,

things arent the same anymore

its coming up to 9 months.. it seems like only yesterday

it was 10 months for the boys only days ago..

i cant always be as strong as everyone thinks i am

sometimes i just go insane

im missing you alot

me and shadow are going to come by the cemetary,

i dont know if its a good idea to bring him

i never have before.. im afraid he may pee

lol baby, i know you'd just be laughing anyways

but im not sure yet, maybe ill come by myself

but i tell him all the time ill bring him to see b,

he wags his tail.. he really misses you

lately, hes been taking up your side of the bed

sometimes when im dreaming,

i reach beside me, his fur feels thick like your hair

and its the same colour..

so in a deep sleep,

it feels right b.

it sounds weird, but i just want to hug you all the time

i just miss everything about you

i pray for you all the time

somedays i even think if i pray enough you'll come back

but mostly, i pray for your family

i know you'd want me to

i pray that they can still smile, even when things are rough

i pray for radian and bacil, there growing so big b

i know they wish you were around to help them grow

you used to always take them to the movies

remember the plan we had for your sisters birthday?

its coming up this month.. ill be there for it,

i know you will to..

i pray that everytime i get in my car, your right beside me

i pray that every morning that i wake up, your watching over me

you never know what tomorrow may bring, or take..

its not hard to know that your still my favorite person to talk to

to go to with problems..

i dont know who i am sometimes, without you..

just keep that gate open, i know you can hold it

your strong enough to hold it open for me

and when we meet again,

ill give you a big panda kiss and then take you for ice cream

i love you more then i ever told you b..

I never knew neither Bianca or Ilko, but my heart goes out to their friends, family and all other loved ones. You can tell their love was real and to know that they found each other is beautiful. My deepest condolences to the families of these beautiful people.

RIP ... May their presence guide the loved ones they left behind. 

i love you forever

i love you..

hey b

im sorry i havent visited here all week

i know you really like the messages

but i have updates

well my friends mom hit my car

and its getting fixed now

everything else is going alright

i thought about you when i visited mac this weekend

i always wondered where we would end up

im going downtown next year for sure now

i have decided its where i want to be

im scared im going to realize i dont want the program im in

but i think it will be good for me

i wish you were with me

we were going to go together

remember

i guess things change

but i still love you

ill still wait for you

xoxoxo

love,

your wifey

b baby <3

i love you

more than anything

dont ever forget

i cant wait to see you

i love you

hey b,

its march!

already..

your angel needs to despritly talk to you

or vice versa, i need my angel..

i hope you were with me last night baby

i think you were

i knowi you were

im sorry for some of the things i said

i miss us, i miss this

come home...

9 months for the boys already

i cant believe it babe

i miss you guys more then ever

sorry i havent written,

ive been kinda down lately

ill explain later

i love you.