Bianca Marcelo

good morning chinchilla,

its been really rainy out lately

the toronto santa clause parade is on tomorrow

nicole said she would come with me

but i really wish you still could have,

i wish we did everything we used to do

all over again. i would in a heart beat.

 

i guess the reason we cherish memories so much, is because there the only real thing in live that never change <3

i hate the words 'i miss you'

they just seem so over used

so over played, i just wish you stayed

i wouldnt have to keep using these lines

always saying the same thing.

theres nothing left to say,

because its like a phone call through a cut off wire

there was no room to make new memories

so all we have are the old

there still the best there ever was,

but i just keep replaying it over in my head

i see al the signs of everything you wanted me to know

everything you told me the last few weeks before you left

you taught me life is to short, you told me to forgive others..

so i did. you told me that no matter what you would always be my best friend

and if one day i ever forgot that to just call you up and you would tell me

that nobody could ever come between us and that boyfriends or girlfriends,

anybody that we loved or cared for "wouldnt make us"

you taught me how to be stronger and how to let go

even when you dont want to, you gave me all the courage in the world

to do what i had to do, to let go of what i dont need

and to hold onto what is best for me.

i could just go on forever, but most importantly

i know you taught me, that love doesnt die..

 

miss you today. me and your mom both. life is moving so fast and it seems like your supposed to be around to share it. love you.

hey babe. 4 months today, i dont know how i got his far without you. seems like it was only yesterday we were going to have our final sleepover.. seems like only yesterday i heard your little laugh, had you here with me.. seems like only yesterday i didnt miss you because you were always beside me. things are so stressful down here, stuff is so messed up and i never have anyone to talk to.. i miss you today more then ever i think. im going to lie in bed and talk to you there.. i love you, but you know that.

Hey Sunshine. It's late down here. About 2 am. I can't sleep, The clocks got pushed back so it doesn't feel that late. I miss my best friend alot today. Things aren't the same, Nothing ever is anymore. I feel empty without you. I sit in my room everyday at the hotel, It's right by the bridge and the highway so there is alot of lights at night.. It's kinda pretty to see all the shinning lights. I wish you were here, more then anything. I miss your house. Going there now is fun, Hanging with your family.. But without you, It's nothing. I just want to hug you and kiss you and push you.... lol, joking. I miss laying in bed talking about boys, playing cell phone games.. Seem's these days all anyone ever does is tell me to get off my cell phone, or to stop playing games. I just keep writing and rambling on everyday, but I just miss you.. I just want you to be here. I never cried over somebody ever like this, a boy, a friend, my family.. any fight, or break up or anything. I just miss you ok.

Love you forever

baby baby baby babbbbyy!!!!

lol omg, ok so today someone was talking about text messages and how they dont want to delete any of there saved messages cuz there special, but they have no more room on there phone.. and it reminded me of how you always did that, and saved my special messages.. and then it reminded me lolllll this is funny.. "there once was a lama and a chinchila.. they were in love.. etc." lol our whole story we had, I am going to try and get it off of your phone from mama so I can type it up to you <3 lol it made me laugh, reminded me of all those little messages.. and the ones from.. ahaha "J Carol" lol Ilko that one goes to you. just put a smile on my face, we had alot of good ones guys. anyways baby, just wanted to remind you! missing you more then anything, winters coming up.. going to be a long one without you.. no more snow ball fights, actually.. me getting barried in the snow, you and ilko with no shoes on.. lol and the boys always through snow into our window. winter was our best time of the year, for the past like 4 years it has been.. we had a lot of fun in the winter.

from.. your wifey <3

lollll still makes me laugh..

miss you today.

infinity x's and o's

forever,

your best friend :)

Hey baby girl.. just hanging out, going downtown today to look at some schools and stuff. I know we were looking into the same programs, we were gunna go together.. Makes me think about you a lot knowing you should be here with me to do this, we were always planning on going together.. getting a little apartment or something. We could have gotten another Panteres!!! Then we wouldnt have to share lol <3 Anyways baby, I will be thinking about you.. I know your up there telling me not to stress over this like you always did. I will make sure I pick out a good one.. for us ok. Love you SO much FOREVERRRRRRRRR AND EVER andd ever and ever x10 + BF's + GF's = nobody makes us ahaha have a good day sunshine.. and maybe try to shine brighter today then most, It would be nice to have some sun around here!! lol :P

infinity x's and o's

your wifey :)

hey beautiful,

just thinking if you.. like usual, missing your little gay laugh today.

i could search forever but im never going to find a best friend like you ..